GAWD, I'm an idiot!

Ok, so I read too many blogs. In between all the happenings of the day that keep my household and family running like a well-oiled machine, I have all of these beautiful lives of beautiful people to keep up on. I sometimes feel like "the Mama". And then there are those times that I just feel so completely out of touch. This is one of those times. I don't know quite how it happened, but I seem to have pissed someone off.

A blog that I read regularly is of someone who lives closeby. He leads a very exciting life and most of the time, I find it a great deal of fun. He has a huge following. A lot of the things he and his co-horts say, I don't necessarily agree with, but he's a great writer and being in complete agreement with someone isn't the criteria I use to accept the soul of a person. In that way, I feel I broaden my own depth as a human being.

Today, he made a comment about certain aspects of places in Orange County and how LA was better in this particular regard. In complete levity, I cut and pasted the quote that he made into his commenter and simply put "Ummm..nope. But a great story!" and posted. He wrote me an email response saying that he stood by his opinion. I responded, still thinking it was light and airy and told him the reasons that I thought we differed, paying special attention to compliment him on his very exciting lifestyle. And in conclusion, I offered up one of my most favorite things to do in OC, closed with my usual "be well", and went about my merry way.

In return, I received another email basically lambasing my tastes. How he liked such and such because it had style, and disliked my particular fave because it was divey. That's the Reader's Digest condensed version. By the time he was done, I felt dirty. I felt like I had been spanked like an ugly stepchild. I felt like I should crawl into a cave and die for my lack of style. To tell you the truth, I was hurt. I had been a quiet fan. I'd even been one of his rah-rah people when others were personally attacking him in a public way on his blog. I couldn't understand why he felt it necessary to say things in a way that turned into a personal attack on me. He may not have meant it, but that's very much how it felt.

I sat there and thought. I wrote and re-wrote a response. It's ALWAYS my nature to be kind. That's the way I live my life. Through kind words and thoughtful response. Unless of course you mess with my kids. In that case, I might take your head off before you know it's missing. In the end, I deleted all that I had written and simply sent an email apologizing if I'd somehow offended him.

Then, I sat at my desk and cried. I feel really stupid....but mostly, I'm hurt. I'm just way too sensitive for my own good.